You don't need to try, it's already about you.

Its like I don't seem to have enough of every fucking thing labeled with existance on the planet. I wouldn't want anyone thinking that I am materialistically-challeged. I am. Just that its not sufficiently pathetic to give me "bragging" rights or to get financial subidies from school and reflect the real financial state of my family. Neither do I have........well, alot of things. So this brings about the really emo question: Why is it that we believe having all the material bling-bling and gizmos and hot friends and girlfriends that makes us what we want to be? Yeah, take awhile to digest the question, its takes one to understand one. Maybe I don't see the orgasm brought about by being all sexy and popular, but if everyone wants to lead the feel-good life, why ask the question anyway? But considering the fact that I am still under poverty and have no means to get myself out of it, I probably should just continue the "chinese-thrash" shit, and try to just make a mess out of myself, cause thats all I got to mess with. Don't see sexy when I look in the mirror anyway. Only very.